Running on Vibes and Wellbutrin
Because it's definitely not sleep. There was a lot of reluctance in writing about medications and the vast space between psychology appointments. I'm looking at my page trying to remind myself that one of the best books I've read was a memoir on C-PTSD and all the dark parts it outlined, so I can carry on believing that there's meaning to the words I keep dotting on my screen. When I was diagnosed with MDD (major depressive disorder), it wasn't really a shock nor an epiphany. The whole time I thought it was just the big SAD (seasonal affective disorder), and all I had to do was wait around for the respite and warmth of summer. To my dismay however, I started Wellbutrin, with the hopes that somehow this would be the cure all (because I remain, in fact, delusional, while knowing it's unrealistic). And as the words left my psychologist's mouth, I immediately had to combat the stigma of being on medication, along with the anxieties of the laundry list of side ...