SAD
SAD feels like a deep aching in my chest Something lodged so far there's no pulling it out Even when I try to ease my figurative hand in I can't reach it No matter how hard or loud I cry It won't shake it, doesn't rattle it Despite how tightly I wrap my arms around my ribcage It won't pop it out of place I recall being a sunshine girl Such a different version of myself And I wonder where the hell she went Where the sun went Why is it too easy To allow myself To leave Eventually the ache subsides but I know it's still in there It comes back, in the darkness of the spaces my mind preoccupies I lay in bed grasping for warmth Hoping the layers that I cover my head with Might save me, maybe this time But it always finds a way between the sheets Sometimes I long for someone to pick up this weight If merely fleetingly Yet I ask myself If anyone could truly lift it Am I the cookie in the cup...