Depression(?) and Tagalog Lesson
I haven’t been writing as often as I like, which is obvious based on when I post. This week has been really tough, and for no apparent reason. I have felt so mentally unwell since Monday and I've only started to feel some sort of relief today. I have been going home after work and sleeping for the majority of the night. I haven’t eaten a proper meal all week. I’m more irritable/anti social, and today I cried for most of the morning. Very depressed-adjacent (I say this because I am not diagnosed). I even experienced a flare up in anxiety - the kind where you walk through a hallway of people laughing, and think they're all laughing at you, and you hold your breath all the way back to your car, and don't fully inhale-exhale until you get in. I dreaded today, because I knew I couldn’t go home and cover myself in blankets in the dark. I had an appointment after work, that I knew would be unpleasant. I always commit to going to Zumba, even if I don’t feel like going, probabl...